Can You Forgive Me

Can You Forgive Me?

 While at work yesterday this thought came to mind.

December of 2018 there was a posting on FaceBook of a video of a man and a woman that were loading a TV set into their car. The person posting the video said that the two people were stealing the TV from outside of a thrift store after hours. The person who was posting this asked if anyone knew who the thieves were?
Automatically people started to comment that these two people in the video should be arrested and that they were the "scum" of the earth. Everyone including myself were judging this man and woman before knowing the "whole truth". We were just going by what was said by the person who was posting the video and what we could see was happening.
But we only had one side of the story.
 One of my family members looked at this post from a different perspective, they didn't see a thief, they saw someone who might need extra help during the Holiday season. 
By no means is stealing a right thing to do, but what I think my family member saw was the way Jesus want's us to see each other. 
My family member saw this couple and chose not to follow the "crowd/mob" and convict these people with a judgement that we did not have the right to give.
Instead they showed forgiveness and passion for their sin.
My question now is to that family member, were you really showing forgiveness or were you just trying to be "different"?
What if I were to tell you that I have done many things wrong in my past. Yes, I might have even bragged about doing them in the past but it doesn't mean that they define who I am today.
But since I was not alone during this "sin" there were other's who still bring it up sometimes. 
I have asked the Lord to forgive me of my sins and to come into my life. Now I am a "Born Again Christian" but not all that see me now know this because of my past still haunts me.

I have started a new life with a wife and family that I love to death. I have taken on a new role in life with more responsibility, and less pay.
 I'm trying to help people with their everyday lives and there are some that I can call friends but many who still see the man I once was and can't get past my past. 
So I ask you my "Family Member" are you truly like the person who I saw last December taking up for the couple that was "Tagged" as thieves.
Would you forgive me and accept me for who I am today?
 And not listen to the "world" as they keep bringing up my past and spreading lies about me.
Would you "forgive" me not knowing everything about my past and see me as your "brother in Christ"?
I ask that you don't judge me because of what you might have seen or heard, things that other people keep bringing up or making up.
I ask you to open your heart to see Christ in me, and to open your eyes to see how the "world" is trying to destroy me.
I ask you to forgive the man that I have just described for this man is not me your brother but rather a man that is in your life no matter if you want him to be or not. 
I need you to forgive me for writing this out in this form. 
I am writing what I feel the Lord is telling me to write.
 The man that is described above is one of God's children a "brother" to you and I.
 I feel that I could reach out my hand to shake his and he would take my hand and pull me in close for a "Manly Hug".
This man has changed my life for the better and I support him fully.
This man is our President Donald J Trump. 
  Matthew 7:5 (KJV) Thou hypocrite, first cast out the beam out of thine own eye; and then shalt thou see clearly to cast out the mote out of thy brother's eye.

 While at work yesterday a thought came to mind about how the "People of the world" see each other.
 Do they look at each other the way Jesus looks at us?
 We are to be "Christ like" according to the Bible,
Jesus loves his children, but hates "sin".
 He'll forgive us of our sins if we ask him.
But this doesn't mean that we will be perfect or are perfect in anyway. 
We are to be "Christ like" not Christ himself.
We are to forgive one another and not judge someone for their sins. 
We all have a "Past", how many of you have sinned?
We all have sinned and we all sin everyday many times for the same sin time and time again.
Some sins are called an addiction and no matter how we try to stop doing this sin, we stumble and fall and do it again.
Do not look at someone else's sin and think that theirs is much worse than yours and therefore you must be a better person. It doesn't work that way, sin is sin. 
If you do not have a personal relationship with Jesus then it doesn't matter how much wrong or right that you have done in your life because when you die and we all will someday, do you want to go to Heaven or Hell?
If your answer is Hell where you will be tormented forever then do nothing here and now.
But if your answer is Heaven, then ask the Lord Jesus to forgive you of your sins and ask him to come into your heart and be your savior. 
You do not need to be in a "Church" to ask this of him. You can ask him right now wherever you may be sitting or standing. You can ask in the silence of your mind or you can cry out to him. Jesus hears our calls no matter how loud they may be.
After accepting Jesus you'll feel his Holy Spirit come and fill your soul. You may live in a "High Feeling" life style for a while. But the devil will still try and tell you that you are the same person as before and you may even "slip" and say or do something that makes you think that you are no good. 
 Remember, we all sin. Even the Pastor of the church commits sin everyday.
No human is perfect in Gods eye, only Jesus.
And you nor I are not God,  so we should not act like it, we need to forgive and love one another no matter what each of us do or say.  
   Luke 6:42 (NKJV) Or how can you say to your brother, 'Brother, let me remove the speck that is in your eye,' when you yourself do not see the plank that is in your own eye? Hypocrite! First remove the plank from your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck that is in your brother's eye.
                                                                        Buzz  05/15/19

***WARNING*** Someone is Watching You...

*****WARNING*******
You are being watched...
 Everyday someone is looking at you to see how you will handle any given situation that comes your way.
Think before you act...
Your kids are watching, your husband/wife is watching, your best friend and the people at work are all watching you even without you knowing, they are all wondering just how you are going to react.
We all want to be the perfect person in everyone's eyes, but we know that we are not.
Jesus is said to be perfect in everyway without blemish. And even though He has scars it doesn't mean that he is not perfect. His scars are the perfect sign of his love for us. He didn't have to suffer the painful torcher and death that he did. He did it because he loves us. Even though His Father told him that he had to die. It was still Jesus's choice to die. Yes he knew that he would rise again from death. This doesn't mean that he took the easy way, He felt the pain, he cried out to his father, not for help but rather for him to forgive his accusers.
Jesus's death and resurrection is a sign for everyone that there is HOPE in our crazy lives.
Not saying that your life will be perfect after you come to know him in a personal way, But rather you will have him by your side the rest of your life in your daily walk. Tough times will still come and you will still feel the pain that "life" brings and you will even experience death through others and eventually yourself. But knowing Jesus he will bring comfort to and others around you.
As a followers of Jesus we all look to him for guidance, knowledge and wisdom on how to live our lives.
Now with all that said, what about all the people that don't know Jesus, they might have heard about him and they might even know people that say that they know/follow Jesus. What if the people that they have seen in the past say they are "Christians" but they live their lives like everyone else.
So if that were the case, then why would anyone want to become a Christian?
People are watching us to see if we are going to cuss, spread rumors, go out and act worldly etc...
 When someone looks at you, do they see the light of Jesus?
You say that you know him and that you have his love in you, are you sharing His love?
If you say that you are sharing the light, then are the windows of your life covered by curtains of shame, are the blinds only part way open, does your windows frosted or are they "Stained Glass" from either your past or current sins?
Jesus Loves us all no matter what we have done or what we are doing, He asks that we share his love with the world.
Be the person that people see Jesus in.
If you say that you are a Christian, than act like one, yes you will be different, yes you will stand out, yes some people will feel threatened and yes there will be some that don't like you.
We can't please everyone, and if someone doesn't like the "new you" because Jesus lives in you, please don't feel that you need to change for them if they are a "true" friend then they will accept who you are.
Share the love with actions and everyday life, don't force feed them because it will cause them to choke and push away from you.
There is light in the darkness, but the only way there can be darkness in the light is from a shadow, don't be the one that blocks the light of Jesus to people around you, open your heart and let His light shine.
Proverbs 11:9 KJV
King James Version
An hypocrite with his mouth destroyeth his neighbour: but through knowledge shall the just be delivered .

Two Churches

Just a thought at first, then I "cartooned it".

Many churches that I have been to and even belonged to are like the first picture. Looking back I can see just how narrow minded I was and how they still are. I'm just having fun, but it's also scary because some believe this to be the truth, not because they found it in the Bible, but because it's "Tradition" that's the way they have been taught.
 The second picture is the church that I belong to now, this church shows people the love of God not the condemnation of the church members.
 Which kind of church do you belong to? Maybe you should rethink your answer, because if you go or belong to a church like the first picture you need to ask yourself, when did Jesus wear a suit and tie? Did Jesus turn anyone away because they didn't have the "proper" clothes on? What if they came to Him dirty/dusty? What if they were unshaven and long uncombed hair? Would Jesus say to them, "come back to me when you are dressed better"?
Hmmmmm....

Three Things

     There are three things that you should know
                      before walking on the,
              "Infamous Frozen Pond" of life.

  - How thick is the ice?
  - How deep is the water?
  - Who can you trust, that will be there for you when you
      cry out for help?

  I would like to think that I would be there for anyone
  that needs help, but since I can't everywhere all the time
  I know that I would let someone down somewhere.

  But I know someone that when he hears my call he is
  already there. He is there to protect me, guide me, and
  comfort me whenever I call his name.

  He wants to be there for you also, but you first have to ask
  Him into your heart. You have to believe that he arose
  from the grave. You have to put all your faith in him, and
  believe that He will take care of you.

  It's not hard to do, once you experience His love you will
  see just how easy it was all along, then you wonder what
  your life would have been if He had been there sooner.

  Although you might be falling through the "thin ice" of
  life, because all of your burdens are making you too heavy.
  Remember he walked on the water, he want to carry your
  burdens for you, and if you will let him, he will even carry
  you.

  Call on JESUS anytime, anywhere and he will be there.
 

 

Who are you

 You are at where you are because of who you are.
Once you are compromised because someone want you to be what they want you to be, and you let them change you.
Even through you hold the same position, you loose the respect you earned as yourself.
Stand strong my LOVE, I'll be by your side, as we support each other through these rough times.
A cord of three strands.
WE ARE ONE TOGETHER WITH GOD,
Even if one or both of our strands were to fray or even break,  God won't fray or break. He is our strength.
He is who we need to rely on to keep us moving forward, He can mend our brokenness.

TEMPTETIONS

Life is full of "Temptations",
 I found this cartoon and the caption read "sh*t happens" well yes sometimes we do fall for things that look "too good to be true" but we still take the risk knowing that it probably isn't true. Knowing that we will probably get hurt, but we still do it anyway.
 But what if the thing that we do, really hurt us in a way that we can't reverse it?
If we knew the out come would we still take the chance? I think most people would still take the chance and try and beat fate.
 I took this same cartoon and erased the old caption and replaced it with one that I thought would be most fitting for "Temptation".
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Muddy Waters

On  our journey through life , we sometimes get off the "beaten path" that God directs us to follow. We often forget that even though we are being rebellious, our Lord still loves us. He may not be happy with our decisions, that we have made, But He still loves us. And sometimes He will allow bad things to happen because of our disobedience, But he still loves you.
 In the mist of the "storms" in life He will stand beside you, If you are involved in a "flood" in your life he will provide the boat. And even if the waters get really rough, He will either calm the storm or He will ride it out with you. Remember He still loves you.
 We ask to be beside "still waters", that doesn't always mean that they will be crystal clear. And it does get scary not knowing what we are wading through and what dangers are waiting beneath. Guess what? He still loves you.
 He will be there guiding the way, all we have to do is just take hold of His hand, and have faith in Him. And if our hand slips and we fear that we will loose our grip. He's there to reassure us that he has a firm grip. If we sometimes slip or fall from what we might be walking on in the "muddy waters", we just have to call on His name and He will carry us, Because He loves you.
 When we were kids we liked playing in the mud, and even as we got older we still are drawn back to the "Muddy" things in life. Things that at the time that we are doing them seem to be fun, but after we have played all day in the filth, we have to clean up.  If we leave the dirt and grime on us for too long it will lead to other problems. And when the "world" see this they will separate themselves from you. Remerber He still loves you.
   If we played way too long in the filth in life sometimes the "dirt" won't come off no matter how hard we try.
  This is when we could call on the "Cleaner", God will hose you down with His "living water". Clean us up, give us "bread" to eat, clothes us in His majesty. Because of His love for us.
 And when the time comes again, when we think that we know better than Him what is best for our life. And we let go of His hand to journey down our own path, not listening to His warnings of the dangers of what lie ahead of us, We just leave Him behind.
 And when trouble does come we may look around and not see Him, this doesn't mean that He isn't there. We may have to endure the consequences of our actions. He is just watching from a far waiting for our call.
 Muddy waters might be in our lives temporally right now, But His is with you always, because He will always Love you, no matter what.

Tomorrow

 Today I awoke feeling good, Knowing that my wife loves me for who I am and not for what I have,
  I love her. 
 Today I awoke feeling good knowing that My Lord loves me for who I am and not what I have done,
  I love Him.
 Today I awoke feeling good knowing that my family loves me for who I am and not because they have too,
  I love them all.
 Today I awoke feeling good knowing that I have friends that care for me, because I care about them.
 And yet today when I awoke,not knowing what would happen to me today, I let "things" consume me,
   Things that I know is not of God, But yet I still believed in the "lie's".
     All the aches and pains that my mind are telling me are there, which they are but they Will not ruin my life.
    Then why do I believe them when they come around.
 Today when I awoke I was planning on going to church, I even invited a friend too come.
   Not really knowing if he'd show up.
   But knowing that I need to be there anyway. But instead I stayed home thinking that my back was really hurting.
 Today I awoke knowing that people all around me are hurting because they don't know "JESUS",
   but yet I ignore their cries.
 Today when I awoke, I considered only myself, and no one else.
 Today I feel like a loser, I've let everyone down even if they don't know it .
 Today I let myself down, and I'm feeling it.
 Today I let my wife down, even though she won't show it, I'll know it in my heart.
 Today I let my Lord down, He say's that He will love me no matter what,  All I can do is ask for His forgiveness and try not to let things get in the way again.
 Today, all I can do is ask forgiveness from everyone, for letting them down, and also ask them to help me by being accountable.
 Today things are starting to look a little brighter, but the clouds still remain.
 Tomorrow, I pray will be the "better" day.

Tough Day?

Look in to the face of the devil, and tell him that he will not get the best of you today,
  Because the Lord JESUS is the best of you.
Smile to the world, who is trying to get you down,
  Lift them up to Jesus in prayer.
Demons are all around the outside of us,
  But Jesus is in our hearts and his Love fills us to where it over flows our bodies.
The world is dark even in the brightest days,
  The Lord is Light even in the darkest night.

P. P. L.

 Trusting in the Lord is more than what most believe or even want to believe. we could walk around all the time looking up and praising Him, But that doesn't mean that we won't trip over things that come in our way. The Lord wants us to pray and to praise Him, But He also wants us to live a life that is our own.
( Pray , Praise , Live ) But don't give up, just continue these three things.

Wedding Anniversary

Isn't it funny how we can remember some things and our mind goes blank the moment we start something new.
 Ten years ago on this very date, I have no idea of what I was thinking, nor do I remember where I was or even what I would have even been doing.
I guess it wasn't that great a moment in my life for me to even think about trying to remember.
 But on the other hand , one year ago today something happened that I will never forget.
 Deb and I said our vowels and we celebrated our coming together as "one" with our families and friends.
 And now it's been one year, one year? Boy this time as gone by fast.
 Sure there has been some moments that we had some hard times with things and even with each other, But when we said that " We will love each other in sickness and in health, richer and poorer until death do us part". it was more that just some words that we said, it was and is a Promise that we made to one another and most importantly to God.
 Today we celebrate the "Promise" and look forward to all the times ahead.
 Without trying to think of regrets, we just remember the reflection of the times that God gave us, for we as a couple can go to Him and ask for help. And when going through those  tough times we grow closer together and stronger in our relationship with God and each other.
 Today won't you celebrate with us the "Blessing" that God gave us. And remember to celebrate the Blessings that he gives all of us everyday,  in spouses, family , friends and even the strangers that we pass by everyday.
 You my be the blessing that someone else needs today.
 Celebrate everyday just for the breath that He gives us.
 How do you celebrate His gift of breath?
  Do you curse His name?
  Do you lift up His name and praise it?

Un-Wanted Relatives

Have you ever had a Relative or know someone who just isn't welcome where ever they go because they are always causing trouble. They always want to be the center of attention. And if they are not then they will pout and cry and even start throwing things. They don't care that they might break something in fact they break as much as possible just so they will be remembered. And your not careful they will take things that aren't theirs, and you might never get it back.
 We heard that someone was heading our way that is like this, so in preparation , we went out and bought a lot of extra food just in case they decided to stay a while. We also had to put boards on the windows just in case they decide to start throwing things. And to make sure that they don't take anything that doesn't belong to them we tied everything down.
 I know, I know you're saying "just tell them not to come". Well I wish it was that easy, they don't like being told what to do, and they choose not to listen.
  The only thing we can do is Thank the Lord for His protection and welcome Aunt Irene to our lovely home, and pray that she doesn't hang around long and that she doesn't cause a lot of damage.
 Hurricane Irene, we are ready for you. You might feel strong, but just remember the One who made you, is my heavenly Father. And he said that He will never leave me. Aunt Irene you might play hard, But I will win this game of yours. After all you are coming to battle on my turf. And this home is dedicated to my Father, and His presents is all around us. I will be a winner either way. If you decide to take my life, I will be praising my Lord the very moment you take it. And when we survive your fury, we will be praising God.
 I will not give you any praise. Your hours are numbered and you will be soon forgotten.
 But my Lord will be here forever.

Farm Life w/ my Love

- When words are said with a loving meaning to each other, while at the same time everyone else thinks we are crazy-
 Deb and I will always be "Bull Headed" with each other and say "Chicken Foot" forever.
 Ahh "Farm Life".

Jesus Fish

 

What "symbols" do you wear that tells the world, just what type of person that you (might) be?

      The Lord tell all of us to be "Fishers" of men, to go out and tell the world of His Love.
 Now I ask you , just how much fish would come around us if we were making a lot of noise
 and commotion? Not many.
  Now if you were to ask a fisherman , what would you have to learn to have a successful catch,
 they would say to come into their area or into an area that they are traveling in a calm, quiet but yet
 firm kinda way. let them know that you are not there to harm them,
your just part of the same "world" that they are a part of.
 Next , you need a plan of action. You can't just yell into the water and expect for them to come to you.
 What do you have that will attract them to you? answer: the light of Jesus.
 If people see Jesus in you and experience the Love first hand from you,
then they are more likely  to come to the attraction and be intrigued.
 This will be the time when you can tell them of the Lords love for them.
I wear this "symbol" everyday  to remind me of my job as a "Fisher of Men".

True Confession

I'm falling for a married woman,
  Everyday that I see her I fall a little more.
  Her beauty is unchanging,
  Her voice has a comforting tone,
  Her touch is sheer pleasure,
  Yes, I'm in Love with a married woman,
  And the married woman is my wife.

  I Love You Deb.

Text to Deb, when things looked impossible:

Doesn't matter how heavy things get, the Lord tells us to give Him our burdens, and He gives us His spirit,(which is lighter than air). Keep moving forward, for the goal is in sight.

What goes through the Minds of the Little Ones

 The little ones must think that life is fun, because they mostly play and sleep. When they do wrong or if they play too rough they get a stern talking too.But other wise, life is good. They couldn't survive without the help and guidance of the big ones. They love the big ones, and the big ones love them.
 The little ones can't figure out why the big ones can do the most amazing things and why they cannot. But they don't dwell on it because there is more time to play.
 The little ones day consists of waking up, eating, playing, sleeping, playing, sleeping etc...
The little ones love depending on the big ones, and the big ones love loving the little ones.
 In the little ones eyes they see the big ones do the most amazing things by walking through the barriers that confines the little ones from exploring new places, but the big ones know that if it wasn't for these barriers that the little ones could be hurt or even lost.
 The little ones can't walk through these barriers but they can see through some of them. The don't understand why that even though they can see outside of these barriers that whoever is out there might not see the little ones. And when the little ones try calling to them that they can't hear them. So why is it that when the big ones open a barrier and they walk through there might be another barrier that the little ones can see through and if they try calling out to others then they can hear them. And then the big ones come and try to quite the little ones.
 Why is it that sometimes when the big ones walk through the barriers by themselves or with other big ones they sometimes don't come back for a really long time?
 Today, the little ones walked out of the barriers with the big ones, they were wanting to run and play, but the big ones had them stay close. The little ones watched as one of the big ones got into a box and the box then closed all around the big one. But just in a matter of a minute or less the big one that was outside of the box was able to stick his head through the box and then the little ones could see and hear the other big one. And even though the little ones couldn't touch the big one in the box they were content with just hearing her voice.
 The big one leaned back into the box again and the little ones heard a phrase that they hear all the time "I Love You".
 Then the big one pulled his head back out of the box, and the box started to move away from the little ones. The little ones started to cry, they all just stood there watching as the box disappeared. The little ones tried to find the box but the other big one held them close and told them that she would be home soon. Then the little ones played for a short time in the hot air before the big one brought them back into the cool barriers that keep them safe from harm. Now it's nap time again. Then they will play, eat, and sleep. Then when it's time for the big ones to return the little ones greet them as if they haven't seen them for years, they hug and kiss the big ones and show them that even though the little ones were busy all during the day, they were just passing the time until they get to see the big ones again.

Big Ones - Buzz and Deb,
 Little Ones - Sarah, Sadie and Troubles.

Kiss- "Destroyer" Album 1976 - Beth

For those of you that know this song, go ahead and read it to the tune.


"Beth"

Beth, I hear you callin'
But I can't come home right now
Me and the boys are playin'
And we just can't find the sound

Just a few more hours
And I'll be right home to you
I think I hear them callin'
Oh, Beth what can I do
Beth what can I do

You say you feel so empty
That our house just ain't a home
And I'm always somewhere else
And you're always there alone

Just a few more hours
And I'll be right home to you
I think I hear them callin'
Oh, Beth what can I do
Beth what can I do

Beth, I know you're lonely
And I hope you'll be alright
'Cause me and the boys will be playin'
All night

 This is one song in my own opinion that stands out from what this band normally sings. Not really, the music is slower and the words seem easy to listen to. but if they put a lot of thrashing guitars and fast thumping drums and yelled the lyrics, it would sound just like the other "head banging music".
This a Love ballot? The name of the Album is "Destroyer".
 I grew up on "Heavy Metal" and I really like this song as well as other "Ballots" from other Metal Bands.
 I'm just looking at them from a different view now.
 Again this is just my opinion, you take it your own way.
  The song starts out with two people that are in love, but not necessary with each other.
 She seems to want him to spend more time with her, and he act's like he wants too, but when it all comes down to what is important to him, he lets others decide for him. so is he weak? or does he just say what she wants to hear?
and in the end, it doesn't matter what he tells her with words, because his actions tells the truth.
 I would never put anything or person above my love. I made a promise to her when we got married, that she is the "first" in my life,but second only to the LORD. which means my Lord comes first and she is above anything and everything else. When she calls me, I'm there. The "boys" won't pull me away.

"Dining Etiquette" for Denny's

 This is a true encounter I had while eating at a Denny's Restaurant.
 I had made plans to have a "Last Breakfast" on May 21st. 2011, ( The day that the world was to end. according to a "crazy dude".)
 Any how I invited a bunch of people from work, and decided that we should have this around 3am. that way the time would be in between the times in which the two night shift's get done.
 And wouldn't you know it, since I was off the day prior I feel asleep waiting for the time that I was to be there.
 I got there about 20mins. late, and when I went inside the waitress asked if I was alone? for now, I said there will be more coming soon.
 So she sat me in a booth and I faced myself where I was facing the door and I could also see out the window.
  I ordered a "sampler"- which had onion rings, cheese sticks, chicken strips. and also ordered some "pancake puppies", and a chocolate shake.
 I prayed over the food, and while sitting there waiting I was talking to God.
   when the waitress brought the food out she asked again if I would be eating alone?
 I assured her that there would be more coming, because we were calling this our "Last Breakfast" and when she asked why we were calling it that, then I went on to remind her that today is the "end of the world" and then I just smiled at her.
 Not seeing it then but looking back now there was terror in her eyes. I continued looking out the window just waiting to see if I knew anyone that was coming in.
 A few minutes later the Manager came over and again asked if I was eating alone and if everything was alright? I assured him that yes everything was fine and that my friends were just running late.
 I then asked the manager , by any chance did anyone come in before I got there looked around and then left without ordering ?
 He just motioned for the waitress to come over and while he was standing there he asked the waitress the question that I had just asked him moments earlier. she shook her head no, then moved quickly back to the kitchen. He then said that if there was anything that I needed just ask , because we don't want any trouble.
 Thinking he was joking, I said well then you should have thought about that before you sent me these dried up burnt pancake puppies, Then I smiled and continued looking out the window. I happened to look at the clock which was right above the kitchen. and I noticed that the waitress and the cook was looking right at me, as our eyes met they quickly looked away. I just blew it off as a weird thing. As I continued looking and waiting I noticed that a "Town Cop" pulled in the parking lot. Thinking to my self wow, Denny's must serve "Doughnuts" now , and I laughed to myself. I watched as the officer got out of his car he walked in with one hand on his gun. He must be wanting to impress the waitresses, (tough guy). as he walked in the manager met him at the door I watched them as they were speaking and then it happened, something that made me feel really uncomfortable. they both at the same time looked over at me. I just smiled then looked back out the window. out of the corner of my eye I could see someone walking up to the table.
 As I looked up to see who it was I noticed that it was the officer and as he started talking to me I looked around the room , where did everyone go, there were people a couple of tables away that were not there now. I never saw anyone leave.
 The officer asked me how everything was, and I just looked at him and asked what was going on? he never answered me, instead he asked another question, what was I doing there? I was getting pissed, so I asked him "What are you doing here"?
 He than said to me, Son I'm doing the asking, all you need to be doing is answering.
 I then said , OK I'm waiting for some friends and we are going to have breakfast together, is that a crime? I said.
 No, it is not, but you've been waiting for them quite a long time.
 I looked back at the clock and said, it has only been an hour. then He asked , just what did I mean that this would be my last meal, and how was I going to kill myself? was I planning on hurting the people in the restaurant?
 WHAT??!! just what the heck are you talking about? I never said that is my last meal, I said this was the "Last Breakfast", you know today is supposed to be the end of the world. and then I realized that I do look a little crazy looking, I mean I haven't shaved for almost a year, and my hair is getting long, and since I haven't had much sleep my eyes must be red. I guess I do look like trouble.
 he then called on his radio and asked for assistance, He asked if I would walk outside with him?
 I told him NO! that I was waiting on my friends to show up, Thinking to myself, just where the heck are they.
  He then asked me to stand up from the booth, I still held my ground and said no, then I took a bite of a chicken strip and looked back out the window. he then reached across the table knocking the chicken out of my hand and grabbing my arm which he then started twisting it until I slid across the bench to where I could get out of the booth. I tried to free my arm when he grabbed my other arm and very quickly put hand cuffs on me, he then slammed my head down on the table.
 and I heard a faint voice, excuse me sir are you alright?
 as I looked up from the table, I saw the waitress looking concerned.
 WOW! I said I must have falling asleep? she said you looked like you were trying to fight it but then you just fell right on the table. are you OK?
 Yes, thank you, I'll just take whats left home in a box.
 I asked her if anyone showed up? she just smiled and said no.
 Well if anyone did show up and didn't see me I was the one slumped over in the booth, and if no-one showed up then, that's OK too. Because I had a nice meal and conversation with God.(Hint: Don't fall asleep while talking with God, because He will wake you up.)

No Thank You, My Plate is too full now.

Why is it that sometimes our plates seem to be over flowing with things to be done?

 Some times things are so good looking and very desiring. Other times we think that we need to do these things just to get by.

 And some times it's a little of both, but what if it's someone else that is filling our plate? Some one who doesn't see or really seem to care that we are overwhelmed with too many tasks.No matter how you try to tell them, "HEY MY PLATE  IS FULL!!!  QUIT PUTTING MORE ON IT!!!"

Even through we need  things on our plates to survive, We need to have a plan of just what is going on our plates.

 We need a "Healthy Diet" and quit having people put their junk and other peoples responsibilities  on ours.

 Just because in the past we helped out in a "Pinch" doesn't mean that we can do it forever.

 There are people "dying" to have something to put on their plates while ours keep piling up.

It's good to indulge in "LIFE", but we shouldn't over indulge if there is a "health risk" (being over worked, stressed out).

 A Doctor could prescribe us a pill and / or exercise. But our plates will remain filling up because others aren't seeing how they are treating you.

 You can tell them time and time again but they see you as weak or lazy.

 That's when we need to sit them down and say, "you are asking too much, and I know that in the past I could do all this and more, I gave you an inch then, but now you are taking more than a mile of my time. I'm finding it hard to do my job and what  you ask here and there, but you keep adding more everyday, and you keep changing your mind on how things need to be done".

 Then we need to tell the other's that keep putting things on our plates to back off. I will do what I'm asked as long as it pertains to what I was originally hired for.I know this job changes daily, but the main focus stays the same, and I'm having a hard time doing my main task when everything else you give me is (has to be put on the top of the "things to do list").

I love my job, and I'm proud to be a part of this organization, But my health and well being comes first, I can't give you 100% of my time, I have a family.

 And don't even play the "God Card", God knows what I can handle, and when my work takes me away from church and away from the time that I worship and praise the lord. Then I know that this (all the extra on my plate) is NOT of Him.

 I'm gonna try something new, instead of having my best "China" out, I'm gonna start using "Paper Plates". Meaning that when my plate seems to be getting to full I WILL stop the portions coming on it, because I don't want it to fold up and land in my lap. And when the day is done, I will just throw the "plate" away and start a new one the next day, I will not be taking my job home!!

 And if they still can't understand this short conception of how my life (at work) is falling apart, then I will find a more "healthier diet" some place else.